The Writing Songstress

I really don't know what to think anymore!

There's this weird attitude of mine, that I would easily fall for someone. I know, it's so mainstream and so yesterday-ish, but actually, it's a fact of my life. If I find someone I like, I usually try to get close to them, get to know them, and all other stuff. I try to seem pleasing to them, impress them(if i must, lol) up to a point that I'm developing a certain, stronger, 'feeling' towards them. Then later on, when I've already have this 'strong feeling' for them, I become uneasy. Then, maybe a week or so, I'd always end up breaking my heart after hearing from them that they liked someone else, or they're engaged or has a girlfriend or doesn't like me as more as a friend - FRIENDZONED, yea probably, but I don't know what to think anymore. 

I have this loose screw in my head, and this happens all the time. Of course, the feelings does not grow overnight, it gradually happens, but still, it does. No matter how hard I try to tell myself that I should not. 

Probably, I'm a walking example of the saying from a person I forgot, "If one does not learn from his past, he is doomed to repeat it." It took me ages to understand what this meant, and now I do, I really do. 

To learn I have to go through the hard, painful way. But after the pains and aches, and I've slowly picked my self up and promised to never ever do that again, I'm back at square one again when another opportunity arises. 

Hope, I would finally learn when to stop. I wish I would know what to do in dire situations wherein correct judgement and discretion must be applied. I wish I know, so I'd no longer be a fool, entangled from the mistakes I scratch upon the pages of my past. 

*Slaps self* Learn! Learn! Learn!

Eat it up! No, I did not mean your broccoli, nor does this have any connection with food, but rather it's something about our words.



We, people are born to be social beings. We are built to interact, to socialize, to mingle, to express, to understand and be understood. That is why there is this one important invention made by our ancestors, WORDS!

Yes, words! Words are very powerful. They could express our deepest angst and emotions in a way, our gestures and linguistics can. And also, they can become a self-destruct time bomb that would cause our downfall. 

So next time, when you're feeling an extreme and explosive emotion that seems like it cannot be contained, please do find another alternative to let out that 'emotion'. Just be careful on how we let it out, 'cuz we never know how it could turn out. It could cause you a lot more trouble than solutions. 

 

Ohhhh....


I miss blogging! It's been months since my last post! Totally, now that all my heavy majors and minors are over.. getting of grades is finished, enrollment is snapped, I can now concentrate on blogging and my summer class. 

It won't be for too long, this haleliuh moment of mine, 'cuz I know I'll become a lot more busier soon. But at least for now, I can have you guys. 


I miss this... ^.^